This week and Quote of the day

This week has been nothing but challenging for me, and today was the hardest. I am not going to go into great detail about it just yet! This change that is going on is going to be struggle, but I know I can do it and I will excel at it.

I stole this quote from one of my dearest friend, we have been through a lot in the last 10 years had many ups and downs, our friendship has taken on many different rolls. We don't see each other as much as we should but I hope she knows that she means the world to me and I cherish her! 

Quote of the day

That's why this weekend I plan to jump out a perfectly good plane for my 29th birthday, I am tired of sitting on the sidelines of life and not having fun!

Quote of the day

A wee bit of me wednesdays!

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  {one} what color best describes you + why?Black because its mysterious and I  think I am a very quite person, you never really know what is going on in my head!
{two} how have you changed in the past year?I cut 4 inches off my hair last weekend does that count? As a person I think I have made a huge change, I am learning to trust people and let go of things. I have learned I can't change people and shouldn't try to either!
{three} have you ever had any surgeries? Yea cosmetic! and heart surgery!
{four} why did you start your blog?I needed a distraction from what was going on in my life at the time, something to focus on other than drama!
{five} what are you looking forward to this summer?Heat! Water! BEER
{six} do you have any family traditions for the 4th of July?No I make my own traditions
{seven} what’s something new that you’ve tried in the past few months?umm...I jumped off something into a pool I am not to fond of jumping into deep water no matter what it is!
{eight} what is the perfect a/c temperature?70 inside{nine} what was the last movie you saw in the theater?Bridesmaids YUCK!!
{ten} what song do you think everyone should hear at least once?umm I dunno God bless AMERICA! :)

My drug of choice.......

Drugs huh....I do not smoke pot, I have never tried cocaine, ectacy or any other drug! But I do have an addiction to a drug. One that started when I was young,

maybe not that young but close to it... I remember being in 6th or 7th grade the first time I picked up a cigarette, I was at my best friends house. She had an older brother who smoked and we asked him for one, I remember it was gross and I never wanted to touch another one again.

Then in 8th grade my older brother informed me that this girl that I looked up to smoked I was shocked and couldn't believe that such a pretty girl would do that. He told me just wait till your in high school Tressa you will smoke, every girl does! No way was that going to be me...until 9th grade came around. He was right my friends and I started hanging out with older people who all smoked and of course I had to also(I am a follower). I would only smoke while I was at school (or ditching) when school got out I would give my pack away or throw them away and go home and I was fine, at that point was never really addicted.

I believe it was about 6 months after we moved to California that I stopped hiding it from my parents, I was not 18 yet, but at this point I was addicted. I did try to quit my senior year with the help of some Mormon missionary's, but on graduation night I blew it.

I feel like the girl who cried wolf, so many times I have tried to quit, twice I was even successful for a year at a time, but I always fall back into it! I am so ashamed of it, I hate the way it smells, I hate the way people look at me, I hate how expensive it is, I hate that its causing wrinkles and ruining my skin. I have tried the gum, patch and welbutrin, but that addiction is always there. 

 

I know all the risks and how bad it is, believe me I see my grandma who can not make it a few steps without her oxygen, I have seen my best friends mom suffer from oral cancer and have a hole put in her throat. 

 

I am going to try to quit again I know there are so many people out there who do not believe in me, they have heard this from me before, but I really want to and do feel I am ready.

If anyone has any suggestions please leave me a comment!

I DON'T EVER WANT ANOTHER PICTURE LIKE THIS!

A wee bit of me wednesdays!

{one} how many times have you been a bridesmaid/maid of honor?Always a bridesmaid never a bride.....Just kidding never been a bridesmaid either no one likes me enough :(
{two} what’s the last thing your do before you fall asleep at night?Text Keith good night
{three} you just won your dream vacation, all expenses paid. where are you going?

humm I would love to go here Dominican Republic!
{four} what is your favorite outdoor activity?Sun worshiping!
{five} as a child, what did you want to “be when you grew up”? did you end up there?A ballerina, and obviously that I am not!
{six} what are 3 things your dream home would have that you don’t currently have?a baddddddassssss pool like the one I posted here, a super big kitchen and just an amazing yard!
{seven} what’s for dinner tonight?Nothing I am on a hunger strike! I had a snack at work!
{eight} if someone stopped by your house unannounced on a typical Saturday night, what would they find you doing?

Typically they wouldnt find me cause I am never home on weekends always with the BF, at his house we may be drinking and playing Wii or going to a local bar! If I do happen to be home I would probably be in bed watching a movie like a LOSER!

 

{nine} what’s your average monthly water bill?Umm don't have one! Remember the loser comment I have "roommates"
{ten} what do you do to relax?Sleep!

Born Rich Switched At Birth!

Check out these pictures of the pool at the house my friend is watching, the pictures don't do it justice! By the way I am super upset with my parents for not getting me this pool when we moved to California!

So much fun can't wait to enjoy some more of it!

No Zip Day

Here is our Sunday funday, well a little bit of it Keith and I were supposed to go zip lining up in Big Bear but a VERY slow driver made us late assshole and maybe us getting a little lost at first, but Keith's amazing driving skills and my super fast sports car was making up for time. We got home and hung out by the pool for awhile and then hit up the Wii Mario Cart, had some dinner and then went to bed! ENJOY our time laps